I was lucky that Cait from Fabricate Magazine thought of me and got in touch. I wouldn't have known about the exhibition otherwise.
Loving the idea of the show and have contributed a small sampler. See below.
Conversations in cloth
Date: 9th September – 9th December 2018
Venue: Te Kōngahu Museum of Waitangi Exhibition Gallery
An exhibition of historical and contemporary New Zealand textiles.
How I approached the project
I've always been intrigued by samplers and have wanted to do one of my own for so long. I let myself play with this piece not really worrying about the end result too much. That's the beauty of a sampler for me it's a working reference piece it doesn't need to be a finished art-work. So I let it be that.
My 2018 sampler for X-Marks - conversations in cloth exhibition.
Detail of sampler by Ngaio Blackwood
Have you ever stitched a sampler? let me know below.
I hope that this might spark you to think of your best reads of 2017. Did we read some of the same books?
Growing up we went to the public library frequently. I have my mother to thank for this and my father was a great reader too. I'm endlessly grateful for being introduced to books and seeing my parents read. I can't imagine not having a book on the go. The only time I can remember not reading every day was just after my son was born. It took me a few months to have the energy to do anything other than just getting by. But man I missed it!
When I read time just disappears. I think this is called being in the zone or something. Unfortunately reading itself is not a career. You have to do something with it to make a living from it. For years I've worked in libraries on the basis of a love of reading. That's right I'm that cliche.
Unfortunately, librarians have very little to do with reading in their daily work. I have known many librarians who don't even enjoy reading. Personally, I question if they are in the right job but hey we all end up in interesting places and stay for various reasons.
I read a variety of things and currently being a school librarian I spent a lot of time reading young adult fiction. Generally, I find contemporary fiction bores me as I like to use reading as an escape. I'm not very interested in reading about the current world we live in. I have to deal with that every day... But of course, when I force myself to read it I normally get something good out of it.
Reading for pleasure is about following your own reading journey.
Without further ado. In no particular order, here are my top 5 books of 2017
Long way down
I've never read a book in verse before but man this one was a good place to start. What a fast-paced read! We journey down an elevator with the main character as he has a ghost of Christmas past experience. Every stop brings a new piece of information to aid his decision, to avenge his brother gang death or not.
“ANOTHER THING ABOUT THE RULES
They weren't meant to be broken.
They were meant for the broken
Everyone loves a good heist and I'm no different. I loved the Grishna trilogy so getting to delve back into this universe was awesome for me. If you liked Oceans 11 you might want to check this one out.
I loved this for so many reasons. It really made me think of my prejudices and what I can do to become more aware of them. The story is the fall out after Starr watches her childhood friend be fatally shot by the police.
racism, family, prejudice, America
“Sometimes you can do everything right and things will still go wrong. The key is to never stop doing right.”
― Angie Thomas, The Hate U Give
The Collapsing Empire By John Scalzi
There is a bit of swearing in this book. Personally, I don't mind a bit of cussing but everyone is different so thought I better mention it. A Science fiction future that seems very possible with a lot of black humour equals an excellent read. I've wanted to pick up a John Scalzi book for ages after really enjoying fuzzy nation years ago. Now I want to read everything he's written.
Science fiction, space, humour, politics
“I’m continually confronted with the human tendency to ignore or deny facts until the last possible instant. And then for several days after that, too.” Attavio”
― John Scalzi, The Collapsing Empire
Strange the dreamer By Laini Taylor
I picked this up because I loved her other books. It's the story of a librarian who joins an expedition to help a neighbouring city (the lost city of weep). We uncover what happened in this city's past and the issues they are dealing with currently. Gods, strangeness and egos. Oh my!
Please please read this right now. I'm on the edge of my seat waiting for the 3rd instalment. It covers so many things but really it's about ethics, morality and mortality. Big themes and questions about right, wrong and power?
“Therin lies the paradox of the profession,' Faraday said. 'Those who wish to have the job should not have it...and those who would most refuse to kill are the only ones who should.”
― Neal Shusterman, Scythe
I'd love to hear about what you're reading. Leave a comment below.
The back story to understanding my motivation or finding my why.
I’ve been struggling with my motivation for many years, I was actively making make work but my consistency was lacking and the meaning behind it changed quickly. I couldn’t figure out why I kept changing direction until I watched this TED talk from Simon Sinek. Hello! I didn’t have a clear direction because I didn’t know where my motivation came from. Simon’s video really resonated with me and since watching that and reading his book I’ve been trying to articulate my why.
Finding your why is very useful to everyone, not just artists.
As an artist I have gotten very familiar with what I do but not why I do it. I felt like a lot of whys were being put on me by external sources. Artist’s need to figure out why, how and what they do to make their work otherwise there is no collective feel to their work. I’ve been missing this motivation and searching for it.
The internal voices holding me back
Growing up I reacted to my parents’ criticism by not feeling good enough. I created this drama cycle in my head where I struggled to make good decisions about my life because I didn’t trust myself. The feedback loop was “you can’t make a living being a creative person it’s not enough you’re not enough” I kept trying to give up art because I could see no future in it.
Cue sadness, I’ve never been diagnosed with depression so don’t feel comfortable making claims in that direction. However, I do suffer from anxiety and went through a very difficult time after having my son. Parenting is really hard. The number of times I ended up at the doctor in tears… well there were a lot. The advice was always the same, you need to rest but you can’t get it because you have a young child and not enough help. When western doctors tell you to practice mindfulness it can make you stand up and listen. I really appreciate not being given a magic pill but mindfulness is a long road. Worthwhile but really long.
Well, some of this drama is real. It is very hard to make a living as a creative. What would have been more helpful as an internal dialogue would be something like? “You might have to work a job that is just a job while you pursue your art career and that’s ok. There is no shame in having a day job. Actually, it can take the pressure off your more important work”.
Getting in the right head space to find my why
Two books that have helped me get out of my slumps over the years.
I’ve worked away at this for years. Things really don’t happen overnight for me. The struggle is real. But now that I’m in a more positive headspace and trying to put a lot more mindfulness and self-care into my daily routines. What I realised is for me the thing about my art that thrills me when someone buys my work is the connection we share. The piece spoke to that person about what it depicted to them and me. The common threads that we all have that unite us.
I want my work to break my cycle and help others by sparking conversations about the connections between us myself and them, them and others. All of us and our relationship to the subject matter. It seems so obvious now but it’s been a really difficult idea to get down into words. So many of the conversations I have seem to be about things which divide us, I’d like my work to be able the things that connect us.
To encourage people to look closer at their surroundings so that, together, we see that more connects us than divides us
It’s taken many many tries to get to this and I think I might have finally hit it on the head. I’m not 100% that I’ve written it perfectly so I might tweak it after sitting with it for a while. What I’m really happy with is that I might have figured out the why behind my why. Haha, it’s like going down a rabbit hole.
This is groundbreaking for me. I can now choose my subject matter with greater ease because for me to see the connection between myself and others in something is all I need. I also know now that things which have repetition but variations are easier to start these conversations. Sometimes we don’t see the connections until we see something a few times. So how I choose the subject for my drawings and art makes sense to me and how I make my art also ties into my why. What I choose to make also comes under this umbrella. It all aligns once you have your motivation.
It also makes it easier figuring out how to talk about my work and find people who are interested in it.
Tools for finding your motivation
A website I found useful for working out my why. Go check it out and follow the suggested steps.
Step one: look to your past and search out that connection between moments when everything felt really awesome. Write down the common threads
Step two: write down a “why” that is about other people. Use Simons template and then mix and match it to make it yours.
Step three: get into a positive head space to live and find your why. For me, this was an essential step and I when I started to write down my why statement I couldn’t really get there until my mind was in a better place.
Step four: revise your why until it feels just right. Don’t worry once you have your why the what and how just comes naturally.
That’s it, four steps to finding your motivation.
for me the thing about my art that thrills me when someone buys my work is the connection we share
Please let me know what your why statement ends up looking like.
You love Art deco I know you do. Here are a few tips for your next visit to Napier. Are you bring the kids? Napier is super family friendly or maybe get some you time by going it alone. (You time is so important)
A little bit about my own journey to Napier
I moved to Art Deco Napier in 2016 from Auckland and I have zero regrets (other than leaving behind a few awesome friends). I knew that Napier had a cool Art Deco vibe but I wasn’t sure about the whole art deco festival, it seemed like an overwhelming event to me. I’m not into the party scene anymore, I know you hear me. Now that I live here that overwhelming feeling of the crowds from Art Deco weekend can be easily avoided, instead I get to experience all the beauty of art deco every time I walk out the door at any time of the year.
As an artist, some of my favourite things about Napier are the little art deco details that you can find if you look a bit closer. The stunning street signs and the elaborate manhole covers. Don’t forget to look in every doorway and check out the ceilings in every building.
How did Napier become the art deco capital of the world you ask?
In February 1931 there was a devasting earthquake and the city changed it’s landscape forever. When Napier went to rebuild they embraced the popular style of time which was Art Deco. It now has one of the highest concentrations of this building style in the world. I believe Miami in America also a place to visit for this style. Visit the MTG to learn more about the earthquake.
Visiting Art Deco Napier – What should you do?
Not ready to just wing it? there are some great websites to check out that will help plan your visit before you arrive.
Art Deco is dominated by simple lines, pastels and luxury it has many influences and crossovers with other styles. You can see in Rothmans building (Illustration below) has a lot of influence from Art Nouveau. Learn more about Art Deco on Wikipedia
I’ve really started looking closer at the buildings around Napier and I like what I see. The Details on the buildings show a real attention to detail and high level of craftsmanship.
Buildings of note to visit in Napier – Since you have an interest in Art Deco Architecture I highly recommend a walking tour as they also point out some beautiful Art Deco Sculptures.
The Rothmans building (National Tobacco Company LTD)